I think today might be a good day to reflect and remind myself what little things I am thankful for. Not only is it a Monday, but it is also the calm after the storm. There is still much to be decided and much to become known on the work front in the coming days and hopefully not weeks, but it's time to make the most of the current situation. I am temporarily detailed to another work section and it was extremely stressful to make the transition this morning. All new people, all new responsibilities, and that's just skimming the surface. So I really need some reflection. I need to surround and fill myself with all the positive energy I can muster.
I walked into my new work center this morning and everyone was amazingly delightful. Very kind and welcoming. What a sigh of relief. Work tasks did not bombard me. Phew! Ok today will be ok. So what else am I thinking about. What other little things can I remind myself of.
My dear friend from Denmark has made the trip out to visit for the next week and half. She is so wonderful to have taken the time to be with us while JD is away, but more than that she is a sweet reminder that my family is loved. I have been allowing myself to get overwhelmingly consumed with work drama that it has been taking away from all the little things. I find myself dwelling in anxiety and anger and then trying to talk or pray myself out of those feelings. It's been immensely exhausting.
I keep writing about being loved, as my reoccurring theme, because I am in desperate need to KNOW this sentiment to be true in all aspects of my life. I am grasping to remember and hold onto this concept. It can't really be this hard, but oh boy is it a daily struggle. A daily reminder. A daily journey.
In these last few days, to KNOW, as not been easy. I wish things had played out differently, but the reality is what it is. I suppose I am reminded of an earlier post where a friend of mine said, "I have accepted the reality of it." Still so powerful. Still so true. I suppose I am having the hardest time accepting the reality of it. Ugh...Now all I can hear in my head is humility. Remain humble. Take each piece of life as it comes with the utmost humility. WOW!! So hard.
So today, my post is pretty short but hopefully so sweet. Let's take this day to remind ourselves of how we are surrounded and filled with love. Let's take this time to KNOW we are loved. Let us take this time to accept the reality of it.
Here are my little reminders today...
1. Gazing at my beautiful, sweet children soundly sleeping as I left our home this morning.
2. Being able to get a workout in this morning.
3. Getting to write this post.
4. Hearing my husbands voice on the phone.
5. Knowing I will return this evening to a house filled with people who have missed me today and are grateful I have returned.
Now go write your own list of little reminders or just say them out loud. I am sure it will give you all the strength you need for this day :)
I am a Christ follower, a wife, a mother of 3 boys and was an active duty member of the United States Air Force for 8 1/2 year. I medially retired in December 2018 from the Air Force and I know work as a Fitness and yoga instructor, I run the customer service experience for a local swim school and I am a Doula. I am also working on my Master's in social work.