Relations, Creation, Incarceration, Determination, Equation, Humiliation, Reincarnation, Situation, Elation, Identification, Retaliation, Education, Inspiration, No substitution, Solution, Conclusion.... These are the words that reverberate through the musical hall at Rams Head Tavern where Citizen Cope is playing a solo acoustic set for 312 of his adoring fans. It was such a welcomed get away to be with my friend. Enjoying some amazing tunes, a cheese plate and a couple or 3 ;) sangrias. After a week filled with anxiety and over stimulation by the madness of work I felt like I was in my own world. Just me, myself and I. I got to close my eyes, bop my head and let all my senses indulge.
It wasn't before to long and he was playing Sideways. This was the song my husband and I danced to at our wedding. The tone he chose to sing with was so somber. It allowed a flood of memories to consume me, as I sat and rocked back and forth. I could see my sweet husband twirling me around the dance floor. I could see his eyes gazing into mine. I could only feel all the amazing love I hold for him and how much I can't wait for him to return home. The song ended and the memories faded, but the fullness of the feeling of love lingered through the next couple songs and I couldn't help but feel completely inspired. Inspired, by this all consuming love I have been gifted by my husband. This man that knows me and sees me for me and loves me beyond all human concept. We have certainly had our ups and downs in just 5 short years of marriage, but I know we are even more stupid crazy in love with each other than in the start of this journey together. We have so many more memories to make. I am completely inspired by US.
Ok....enough sappy love and on to the real point of this post. Inspiration....I mentioned above about letting all my senses being indulged. I truly believe that it is in those little actualizations of allowing the senses to awaken and indulge in their surroundings is where real inspiration derives. I was able to enjoy an evening yoga class last night and what a way to really awaken the senses. Throughout the whole class I was was engaging in all the nerves, muscles, and connections of my body and mind. I let all the fuss of the outside fade and the clutter of my insides boil up. I found some organization and peace to my insides. I felt epiphany after epiphany of what my work life should look and feel like. I ended the class wholly aware that it is time to start drawing away from my career in the military and begin to see what the career of my heart is. It is time to bring focus to the passion that drives me.
I was in final vinyasa, corpse pose, laying on the ground with my eyes closed. My sense of hearing was heightened. I could hear every footstep taken, as the instructors feet peeled off the floor one foot at a time from heel to toe. Then I felt her hands on my shoulders. She pressed on my collar bones and then when I exhaled the pressure of her hands grew. I released tension and stress with her aide from the start of that class to the very end. This is what I need to do. I am driven by people. The ability to give back to each and every one of you is the passion that stirs deep within me.
The next chapter isn't days, weeks, or even months away, but it is in the not so distant future. Today I being to prepare myself for the next chapter. I take steps to facilitate the choices that are most wise today for tomorrow. I stay tuned into the little things that awaken my senses and bring me inspiration :)
I am a Christ follower, a wife, a mother of 3 boys and was an active duty member of the United States Air Force for 8 1/2 year. I medially retired in December 2018 from the Air Force and I know work as a Fitness and yoga instructor, I run the customer service experience for a local swim school and I am a Doula. I am also working on my Master's in social work.