The turning point

Just finished the book, Chase the Lion, by Mark Batterson.  It's all about chasing God sized dreams.  The quote on the front of the book really does sum it up, "if your dream doesn't scare you, it's not big enough."

This book has truly brought soul searching to a new level.  Over the past few months I have tried some new things as I continue my transition out of my 8 years in the Air Force.  I am proud to say that I have failed at pretty much all the things I have tried.  I am proud because at least I tried.  I know more now than I did then.  I can move forward with no regrets that I didn't try something.  

Each book that I have read over the past 2 years has been so timely.  God has put in my path exactly the words I needed when I needed them.  I have grown in my ability to more acutely hear His calling on my life.  I have recently applied for and been accepted to a masters program in Social Work.  I am over the moon for this new adventure and challenge.  I have also heard the calling on my life more refined over this last month.  It's such a crazy cool awareness when you have such clarity.  It's scary but so great.  It hasn't stopped me questioning things, but I am moving forward.

I really think this is one of those pivotal turning points in my life.  A time that I will remember for the rest of my life and will be testimony to others as I grow older.  I know God wants me to serve others.  In the capacity of health and wellness I am sure.  I know there is a giant dream to be fulfilled.  I just have to remember to take it one step at a time.

I also know that I am suppose to write.  He has given me the gift of word and so I must use it.  And the biggest realization of all is that He has called me to be a parent.  A mom to 2 amazing boys and a child who He is still creating in my womb.  This amazing gift of parenthood is one that I never thought I wanted to journey given my examples.  But He gifted in me all the experiences I have had to help be and create the world I always wanted as a child for my children.

I haven't been sure what to write about in the past few months as I fumbled through trying all the things.  I went full throttle and then throttled way back.  But I think I know what I am supposed to share most.  It's my journey and love of being a parent.  My love for being a mom.  My joy for getting to team with my best friend in the most exciting, unexpected, hardest, and rewarding endeavor....being a PARENT :)

​Here's to all the lessons that are to come on this journey.