I find myself completely lost and found all at the same time. I have been reading this book called Crazy Love by Franis Chan and it has certainly challenged me in a way that has rocked my entire spiritual foundation. To summarize the book, which might be a terrible idea, but I want to offer you all something, I give you this quote from him, “I urge you to consider and actually live as though each person you come into contact with is Christ.” Then he says on the next page, “We have a God who is a Creator, not a duplicator.” Just pause for a second and let that sink in. Maybe stop reading all together and say a prayer or mediate on those sentiments.
Ok…are you back. Is your soul not rocked? Is your mind not reeling? Well if the answer is no then maybe you need to read this whole book. So, back to my first sentence. I find myself completely lost and found all at the same time. I feel lost in the sense that I am not sure that I am where God intended me to be in life, or if I am where all my planning and actions have gotten me. I feel found in the sense that I am clearer and more convicted in my life that wherever I am at I want to obey and follow God with everything I do.
So what do you do with this sort of fork in the road or maybe I should call it a crossroads. The only answer I have come up with is to pray. I must set my focus intently on drawing closer to our Creator. I must stay faithful and consistent in my pursuit of Him. Finally, I must be patient as I wait to hear and see the path He plans for me to take next. My creator made only one of me and so there is a path he has created solely for me. I’ll let you all know what happens next week J In the mean time I strive faithfully to treat every person I encounter as if I amencountering Christ each time.
I am a Christ follower, a wife, a mother of 3 boys and was an active duty member of the United States Air Force for 8 1/2 year. I medially retired in December 2018 from the Air Force and I know work as a Fitness and yoga instructor, I run the customer service experience for a local swim school and I am a Doula. I am also working on my Master's in social work.